Dec 21, 2010

If at First You Don't Succeed...

...go back to the Dr.~AGAIN! Boy, this has been a hard road lately and I feel like I may NEVER find something that works to relieve my fibro. I tried Cymbalta and quickly decided not to continue with that. Then I must have taken a stupid pill because I also decided to try going without Nuerontin. That was NOT a good idea. I went two nights without it and my body was screaming!

My sweet hubby let me go to a yoga class Sat. morning~which happened to be after two nights without meds. I was SO excited to go to a class! I hadn't been to one since finishing my teacher training the first of Oct. I've done yoga, just not gone to a class. So, I go to this class and I KNEW as soon as it was over that I was gonna pay! By the time I got home, I was reaching for pain meds. and crying. My mom happened to call while I was crying and I had a complete meltdown on her. She also has fibro. so she can totally relate. I am thankful to have her because sometimes fibro. can make you feel VERY alone:( It's just hard for people to understand. I mean, I don't LOOK sick~so therefore I must be okay. I think people also have a hard time understanding the toll it takes on a person emotionally to be 'sick' day after day after day. It felt good to let some of that out to someone who knows what it's like.

 Anyway, I realized after my little moment of insanity and not taking meds. that I could not do without it again. I started doing MORE research about fibro. and decided that at this point I am pretty desperate for relief. I have read so much on the web about fibro. that my eyes sometimes feel like they are crossing! I called my Dr. Mon. morning and thankfully was able to get in to see him. He is so kind! He is always understanding and never makes me feel stupid. He told me yesterday to NOT give up and that he feels really bad for me. He also thought it would be a good idea to send me to a rheumatologist. He prescribed a fairly new drug called Savella and we'll just have to see how my body responds to that. I go to the rheumatologist on Jan. 13th.

I am still not ready for Christmas, but I am choosing to not stress over it. I'll get done what I can and not worry about the rest. I'm so thankful for my family and for the reason for this season~which is Christ's birth.


Edit: The rheumatologist office called and they want me to come today instead of Jan. 13th! I'll keep ya posted:)

1 comment:

  1. let's hope they find something that works. I know what that, you don't look sick, thing is like too. In my family, my older brother always comments on how good I look. He can't handle me being sick and doesn't realize how ill I really am.

    I hope you have a good Christmas